It’s been over half a year since I last posted on my blog. Previously on diphylleia.nl, and we are now over at jazdelilah.nl. I am not going to bore you with details of the hurdles I went through, but I do feel like I owe some people an update.
I do not take the support I receive for granted. This might sound like a grand thing to say for such a small blog and Instagram profile, but I have repeatedly been positively overwhelmed by the kind responses and enthusiasm I have been met with regarding my content, or even just in conversations. It warms my heart and keeps me going, yet also makes me feel guilty about my inability to consistently produce content.
Without making this too self indulgent: my main values and aims revolve around being authentic, educational and a positive inspiration. Seeing my message received loud and clear means the world to me. It makes coming back and dedicating myself to this again a no-brainer. For that I am truly grateful.
And with that, I want to start the new year on a positive note. An educational one, if you could call it that. There is a lot of things I learned last year. The most important lesson is one I would like to share.
The Art of Doing
Navigating life with so many disruptions was never easy, and finding my way took a while. I haven’t ever been secretive about my struggles regarding my health: it has always taken up a big chunk of space in my life and has definitely stolen a lot from me.
It’s funny how so many people seem to perceive me as organized and successful, I do not feel that way at all. I never used to be like that and I definitely have a long way to go. I can admit, however, that things have massively changed. One of the key changes is how I tackle my problems.
It’s not just about the skill itself,
how you utilize it is what truly matters.
I’ve always been the girl with so much potential that I could never live up to. Everyone saw my fire and my knowledge, but you could never rely on me to perform. I wanted to say I used to focus on what was blocking me, but I can’t say I feel like I was focused at all.
It’s hurtful to know what you have inside you and how it’s not being put out there. I think we can all identify with that on some level. The harsh reality is that all of us have mountains of talents and ideas and it does not automatically grant us success. There are many people out there who might be less skilled or informed than you, yet way more successful. You need to know how to do things.
Being a designer isn’t just about having good ideas. Your client needs you to perform within guidelines and a time-frame. People love saying modeling is so easy, but you try living with a jam packed schedule that changes every second while staying professional and reliable. We can all post on Instagram, but not all of us make a living on there. It’s not just about the skill itself, how you utilize it is what truly matters.
So my only New Year’s resolution for myself and all of you: learn how to utilize yourself. As that gap between your inner and outer self starts to disappear you will truly find yourself. I will gladly assist you as much as I can.
Thank you always for your support,